Back to school

The posts in facebook remind me about those old time

I do have the same feeling as what my juniors have it now

while I was still in their age

Well,

with what I am now,

I wish I can go back to join them

to study,

to have fun,

to go out together,

to laugh,

to do everything

I wish I could

LOVE

The best wishes from me to the lovely couple!

What makes your life satisfied?

For most of the society

people seem feeling unhappy with their life

'I am very busy today, very tired'

'I cannot do that lah'

'I got no money, how I gonna buy it?'

I would say these are lame reasons

How you view your life aspect is of utmost important

Of course, everyone is not perfect

not excluded me as well

We cannot have everything being done with 100% of satisfaction

as we are not perfectionist

You might somehow find some little things

that make your day a good day

become significantly important

Not to say that we are not ambitious

but stand at your point

and think again

: Now, I am in such condition

What should I hope for in order to turn my day into a satisfied one?

Do list out five things that make your day a happy day before you sleep,

even some little things that seem not significant.

It does helping you feel better.

Whisper to your heart:

What makes my life satisfied?

Immiscible

Immiscible

a term sounds so scientifically

Well, you may right

we learned about miscibility in lecture

As simple as,

water immiscible with oil

while,

alcohol miscible with water

Relationship

among people

works in the same way, somehow

One might mix well with a group of people

but it might not happen when he or she meet a second group of people

And in the latter situation,

the one who being ignored

usually be neglected in

a talk,

chit-chatting,

discussion......

How would you feel when you are the person?

Socialise

Working

means meeting people

socialise with people you may know or you may not know

I would say too much worry for me

Everyone is wearing their mask

you could not guess what is behind a smiling face

Would it be the

evil side

or

really the

angel side?

You would not know that you are actually being

fooled by them while you are treating them well

No choice

I have to face the reality, there is no other way

Not to avoid but be alert

Simply Sibu

Time flew

Two weeks past silently

Well, I think I am getting adapted to here at Sibu

My reluctance of coming here

seemed to be not a burden to me

I would say I am finally relieved

Sibu,

a small town

yet, people here are simply kind

as kampung folk

the couple of householder for the house I'm renting is not excluded

my house here is almost, I would say is 99.9%, fully furnished

you name it, I have it here

TV? Yes

Air-cond?Sure

And how about fridge, washing machine, gas stove, sofa.....?

Of course, I have them here.

Now, you may think the rental fee must not be cheap

I would say: you are wrong, totally wrong,

It only costs me RM500 for the whole house with 3 rooms inside

Expenses over here would not be a problem for us

as a 4k-income government servant

you can spend like you are living in kampung area

RM2-3 you can get your stomach full

Yes, RM2-3...unbelievable

It would an advantage for me

as I can save a lot, hopefully is A LOT, of money

for travelling, my favourite hobby

However, Sibu is a boring town

no activity over here

Shopping? There are a few shopping complex, but the size.....

can't compare to West M'sia

Mostly consist of supermarket selling daily use

Hiking? Yes, so far I went for once

quite interesting, somehow

Beaches? Waterfall? Picnic site?

Nope.

Arghh!!

I get a shock response when my Sibu friends told me that:

Sibu people eat a lot,

spend weekend at home sleeeeeEEEPPP!!!

Haiz...you can imagine how my weekend past

mainly with drama and FB

Yet, not to forget to mention about cooking and painting...

At the airport

Seeing through the glasses

there are little planes outside

which I am going to fly in one hour time

Yes, I am now waiting for boarding in front of Gate 4

at Kuching International Airport

Somehow, there is mixed feeling

A feeling of excitement for the coming work

This is pro part;

Yet, there is another feeling haunted me now

which is cons part

I think everyone from Peninsula of M'sia

or even in other country

would have a sense of missing home, for sure

The feeling is further enhanced when

you see a plane flying in the air, or

the condition like me now, sitting at the airport, or

maybe whenever people say 'airport' - kinda sensitive person

Hopefully, this 'Journey to the East' would be a great and a wonderful one.

Reasons

People keep asking me: 'Why you don't want to go Sarawak?'

'It is such a nice place'

'Think positively, accept it'

'You can try new life there'

'It isn't that bad as you think'

.......just to name a few

Well,

I can say I'm not that kind of coward person

which doesn't dare to try new things

Perhaps, I survived in Kelantan during my clerkship

To be posted in Sarawak,

I would say it is FATE

Here come I reveal the mystery behind my unwanted feeling about going there

I would sum up that all of the reasons are related to the precious TIME and

for sure, MONEY

You might say: 'Well, you can earn a lot if you work there with the extra allowance'

But the question is how well can the so-called allowance covers my expenses

I would like to know the answer

Let's look at my little 'annual budget' for 2011:

1)

Flight (two ways) - Dec2010 (Brother's engagement ceremony) : RM600

- Interview for USM Scheme for postgraduate study: RM600

- Course for USM Scheme after interview succeed: RM600

- Feb2011 Chinese New Year : RM600

- Mac2011 Gold Medal Award Giving Ceremony: RM600

ILETS - English test for postgraduates study: RM570 (might be more expensive in East M'sia)

2)

Expenses on settlement in working place: RM600

Monthly room rental fee: RM500 x 12

Monthly expenses: RM300-400 x 12

Monthly money sends back to Mum: RM1000 x 12

Kuok Foundation loan: RM150-180 x 12

I guess the number tells you the story.

Just look at the part 1,

I need to spend about 4k on flights and test

Who can support me?

Not to say about the part 2

Till now, you may say: 'How come you judge everything by money?'

Yet, it is true, somehow

However, it would not be the main problem

A bigger problem is TIME

I gonna waste time a lot

for travelling back for those interview and course

for delaying the time changing from PRP (Provisional Registered Pharmacist) to FRP (Full RP)

And it is hard to take leave simply,

as you know I am 'new comer'

And waste energy as well

being tired for sure

as travel a lot on boring plane or bus

Of course, if I am giving a chance,

I would like to have my PRP practice over West M'sia, at least

My plan to travel to Japan next year might spoil

as money is going to be spent on those mentioned above

For those REASONS,

I am reluctantly to go East M'sia

I hope people will not misunderstand on this matter in future

Who am I?

Though this may not be my first time to feel like this

It was annoying

Maybe I am not good in ‘hiding’ my feelings sometimes

I just want to express it purposely

Yet, I know it may not be the correct way to show someone innocent your bad temper

Sorry, if I hurt you accidentally

I know I am this type of people

I have tried to accept myself for being like this

but in vain

And I believe I will continue to act like this, anyway

I loss control somewhere

Everyone wants to be perfect

Sometimes little stuff would enough to ‘kill’ me

I did lost my confidence and spirit

And I lost my mind for sometimes

People say:

You must have a high EQ instead of IQ

Or at least achieve some balance, somehow

I think I am not of any type mentioned above

However, I would say: a mediocrity for me

Not being the high IQ type

yet, not being the kinds of low EQ group

and I learn to not to overwhelm by ‘devil’ in everyone mind

I believe everyone is learning with me at the same time

Just that I would mistreat myself as ‘novice’ every times ‘bad temper’ visits me

which make me a de trop person,

sometimes not in other eyes

but in my own eyes

Our memory

我们的回忆 from daylonfu on Vimeo.

Wait

Since when I was informed to wait,

and wait

and wait.

I don't know whether it is a wise

and right decision

to go for the appealing of my posting state

even for now

Am I regret?

Don't really feel that

but as long as there is hope

I should go for it.

Hopefully,

there is good news

for the great effort of me for WAIT-ing

Raining

It is raining

outside

My tears is falling

from my eyes

with the same tempo

as rainfall

'When would you stop raining?'

So I would follow you

to stop

BIG DAY

A Big Day

Tossing my little purple hat

symbolised I was graduated

Yet, not to forget to have a great jump

with my junior, Su Ee

And this is called as

'Sexy Back'

Last but not least, natural posing with family

Mum, Me & Brother

End.

How distance matters?

It was a month ago while I was waiting bus transfered to my granny house at Aulong.

That was what I saw

A woman which we usually called them auntie, with two children beside her

walking across the drain

and dropped the bottle in her hand just like this

meanwhile the dustbin is just a few steps from the point she threw her little tiny rubbish
Ermm...how would you think about this kinds of act?

'Auntie, please-lah throw it into the bin-lah...just FEW STEPS only-lah'

Sometimes I really cannot tahan with these kinds of people

I will get frustrated for sure

You can help to save our earth with your little energy to walk towards the bin and throw it..

Please...

HBD

Just wanna express my truth love to you, Mum!!

Happy birthday, Mum!

Blank

A blank mind

does nothing

but thinks.

Do you get hurt?

It was the day I coming back to Malaysia

from Taiwan

It happened

in a bookstore

of the Taoyuan International airport in Taiwan

A lady was reading and

standing close to a promotion corner

intentionally

she knocked to the shelf

and books fell

Surprisingly

a promoter from the bookstore

came approaching her

And what you guess would happened after this?

With smile grinning from ear to ear

he picked up the books on the floor

while asking her

'Are you OK?'

'Do you get hurt?'

To reply no,

she shook her a while

And the promoter left away after arranging the books back to the shelf

If we were him,

I would really think that

the first thing we will do is

to express our unsatisfactory

by our emotion

our voice

and our face.

The End

Finally

Eventually

I reached the end of my university life

Let's call it an end.

Decision

Recently,

always busy for exam

but in the mean time

several good news reached to me

SEP program alive!

That was great!

Being offered to Baltimore, Maryland, US

But that was worse too

as I don't have enough money

broken for the coming trips to Taiwan and Korea

Lastly, took the decision to choose India

Still waiting for their reply...

Postgrad.

A things that entangled me for so long time

and I made a decision at the end

Yes, I'm going for it

Recently met with a super senior

quite nice

explaining me everything

with that,

I get an offer to do postgrad. in Japan

but don't really want to stay in Asia

Wanna go somewhere OUT of Asia

Europe country, preferable

And hoping I get offer to well-known university

Oxford

Cambridge

My dream university

Yet, I gonna do well for the last exam now

to improve or at least maintain my grade

Listen

I need people to listen to me

I want you to listen to me

I cannot make decision on my own

without your consent

I hope you can understand

S.I.C.K

I am sick.

Totally sick.

Yet, it is Home sick.

1st anniversary

It had been busy since the clerkship started

Yet, I forgot that My Blog is now 1 year old

Happy First Anniversary!

22.3

When my heart is gone

Sometime it isn't mean that you want to do

and you will do

you need to follow what your heart is telling you

But so sad to hear that

my heart leaves me away

and gone far far away

I need to listen to my heart

but somehow

I couldn't

I need help

Initial g

This is Initial g

G.I.L.A

How would you react if you are facing the so-called 'orang gila'?

I guess you would have the same feeling as me

Afraid!

Lately I am posting at psychiatric ward

that looked like a cage

separating them from the real world

They seemed like living happily in the ward

But what they really want

we cannot imagine

They do tell you the different story

in just few moments ago

They are NOT 'gila'

rather they are mentally distracted

We have to respect to them as a patient.

Patient

It was second week of clerkship

Oncology

or study of cancer

My patient

He was 59 years old

Being diagnosed of colon cancer

underwent surgery, radiotherapy,

and now

undergoing chemotherapy

I can see his smile on his face

He was kinda optimistic

He had confidence in himself

that it will be cured

This kind of spirit

is vital

for supporting himself

physically and

mentally

Admitted to hospital few days ago

and being discharged this morning

I had did my best to counsel him

and I pray hard for him and also

the other patients

Those days

Still remember those days

we spent together in matriculation

Unexpectedly

I have a chance to refresh my memory

over here

in Kelantan

Thanks to my friends

Kelate

It is all about Kelate or known as Kelantan

This is how the story begins

with a lorry

bringing all the stuffs

Yet, it is almost full

The problem starts the moving down

unloading all the stuffs for all ladies

First times sitting on lorry

moving our stuffs to my 'lovely' hostelNow it comes the time for a short shop after settling down all things

No surprise

but it really surprises me that

the counters actually divided into

2 parts:

Male and Female

And I get another 'heart attack'

when I'm on my way to the restroom in a mall

Again, this is what I really get shocked

It is acceptable with the last two signs

But

the female sign with LONG sleeves

and LONG blouse

is totally and simply a surprise!

Calm

Again sitting alone in my room
I think I started to learn how to accept the reality
Action speaks louder than words
I promised myself to learn to be a better me
Comfort my soul and my mind
I told myself: There will be a better tomorrow
Failure of today don’t guarantee the failure of the rest of your life
Live and enjoy everyday to the fullest
It may be not the best for you
But there is the best of the best is waiting for you
I believe…

12.46pm 14.1.2010

A bad ending

It was really a bad ending of the year

A news about the unsuccessful of getting the student exchange program

Strike into my heart

Why am I the one not being selected?

And, to make the matter worse

that I am just at the border of disqualification

I lost my mind

I lost my reaction

Subsequently

The new watch as past birthday gift from brother

Freshly reached my hand

But unfortunately,

It cannot function as it should be

I opened

And fixed

But still in vain

At last

Electric breakdown

Blackout

Accidentally I dropped mum’s phone

The screen broken

Cannot be read it anymore though still functioning

What is happening?

Are these challenges arranged by God?

Why am I the one to be challenged?

Or should I blame myself of not being the best?

I sit alone inside my room

quietly

3.42am 14.1.2010

一个人的精彩

谁说一个人不可以活得很精彩
人人都有选择的权利
你可以选择
一个人生活
或者
去寻找你的另一半
陪你渡过下半辈子

即使你找到了
他 或 她
你觉得你会活得比较精彩吗？

给大多数的人
都会说
‘会！我一定会！’
但
两个人在一起
会真的是爱吗？
还是一种责任？

情到浓时
你可能连什么是爱也可模糊了
爱，就是爱
就这么简单?

但是
另一方面呢？

给单身的人
爱可以是很渴望
也可以很难揣摩

但
爱之前
想想
他 或 她
真的是你值得爱的另一半吗？

别忘记
一个人也可以活得很精彩！

Unexplained

Sometimes things just come in sudden
you can't explain it
perhaps, there isn't a chance for you to explain

Accept it
and perhaps, this is the only way you can choose
cause' life is blossoming unexplained question marks everyday

Money

Starting getting lost
with the definition of money

It seems so important to me

It restricts my choices

It hinders my ways

3C

Studying my note
on out-patient pharmacy & counselling
come across the 3C concept

'Concentration
Caution
Conscientiousness'

Basically
No Concentration
No Caution
Loss Conscientiousness

The first thing that break this rule is
tiredness

I couldn't find myself get into anything I did
little things of daily basis went wrong
even I did wrongly in lab

Reason behind
not other but
lecture starts too early and
yet
it ends too late

And I need rest
sleep
a sound one

Blame

You will never know
how people think
how people react
and how people behave

Sometimes you may blame others
because
they did something wrongly
or
they purposely plan to let you down

You may ask yourself
'Why people behave like this?'
we are human
Gene makes you and me different
Good gene tell you to do the right things
but it never comes out
as those good genes are recessive gene
the bad genes dominate the whole

I rather blame myself
instead of making myself
sorrow
anger
because of other did something that make you upset

A tale of toilet bowl

Today I watched a TV programme

introducing the hygienity of toilet

if your toilet bowl built inside or together with bathroom

then you may find trouble

which you cannot see by your eyes

The microbiologists discovered that

everytime you flush the toilet bowl

especially feces

the water droplets spread

into the air

Through the airborne route

they find their landing site

which can reach 6 feets from the bowl

which they can easily get close up with

your toothbrush

Nothing but

the bacteria land on your poor toothbrush

and start to colonise it

When you get use of the toothbrush

these tiny buddies start attack your body

And the microbiologist found

E.coli

Flavobacterium sp.

which exist in your feces

In other words

it means

'You are eating shit!'