Those days

Still remember those days

we spent together in matriculation

Unexpectedly

I have a chance to refresh my memory

over here

in Kelantan

Thanks to my friends

Kelate

It is all about Kelate or known as Kelantan

This is how the story begins

with a lorry

bringing all the stuffs

Yet, it is almost full

The problem starts the moving down

unloading all the stuffs for all ladies

First times sitting on lorry

moving our stuffs to my 'lovely' hostelNow it comes the time for a short shop after settling down all things

No surprise

but it really surprises me that

the counters actually divided into

2 parts:

Male and Female

And I get another 'heart attack'

when I'm on my way to the restroom in a mall

Again, this is what I really get shocked

It is acceptable with the last two signs

But

the female sign with LONG sleeves

and LONG blouse

is totally and simply a surprise!

Calm

Again sitting alone in my room
I think I started to learn how to accept the reality
Action speaks louder than words
I promised myself to learn to be a better me
Comfort my soul and my mind
I told myself: There will be a better tomorrow
Failure of today don’t guarantee the failure of the rest of your life
Live and enjoy everyday to the fullest
It may be not the best for you
But there is the best of the best is waiting for you
I believe…

12.46pm 14.1.2010

A bad ending

It was really a bad ending of the year

A news about the unsuccessful of getting the student exchange program

Strike into my heart

Why am I the one not being selected?

And, to make the matter worse

that I am just at the border of disqualification

I lost my mind

I lost my reaction

Subsequently

The new watch as past birthday gift from brother

Freshly reached my hand

But unfortunately,

It cannot function as it should be

I opened

And fixed

But still in vain

At last

Electric breakdown

Blackout

Accidentally I dropped mum’s phone

The screen broken

Cannot be read it anymore though still functioning

What is happening?

Are these challenges arranged by God?

Why am I the one to be challenged?

Or should I blame myself of not being the best?

I sit alone inside my room

quietly

3.42am 14.1.2010

一个人的精彩

谁说一个人不可以活得很精彩
人人都有选择的权利
你可以选择
一个人生活
或者
去寻找你的另一半
陪你渡过下半辈子

即使你找到了
他 或 她
你觉得你会活得比较精彩吗？

给大多数的人
都会说
‘会！我一定会！’
但
两个人在一起
会真的是爱吗？
还是一种责任？

情到浓时
你可能连什么是爱也可模糊了
爱，就是爱
就这么简单?

但是
另一方面呢？

给单身的人
爱可以是很渴望
也可以很难揣摩

但
爱之前
想想
他 或 她
真的是你值得爱的另一半吗？

别忘记
一个人也可以活得很精彩！