When my heart is gone

Sometime it isn't mean that you want to do

and you will do

you need to follow what your heart is telling you

But so sad to hear that

my heart leaves me away

and gone far far away

I need to listen to my heart

but somehow

I couldn't

I need help

Initial g

This is Initial g

G.I.L.A

How would you react if you are facing the so-called 'orang gila'?

I guess you would have the same feeling as me

Afraid!

Lately I am posting at psychiatric ward

that looked like a cage

separating them from the real world

They seemed like living happily in the ward

But what they really want

we cannot imagine

They do tell you the different story

in just few moments ago

They are NOT 'gila'

rather they are mentally distracted

We have to respect to them as a patient.

Patient

It was second week of clerkship

Oncology

or study of cancer

My patient

He was 59 years old

Being diagnosed of colon cancer

underwent surgery, radiotherapy,

and now

undergoing chemotherapy

I can see his smile on his face

He was kinda optimistic

He had confidence in himself

that it will be cured

This kind of spirit

is vital

for supporting himself

physically and

mentally

Admitted to hospital few days ago

and being discharged this morning

I had did my best to counsel him

and I pray hard for him and also

the other patients

Those days

Still remember those days

we spent together in matriculation

Unexpectedly

I have a chance to refresh my memory

over here

in Kelantan

Thanks to my friends

Kelate

It is all about Kelate or known as Kelantan

This is how the story begins

with a lorry

bringing all the stuffs

Yet, it is almost full

The problem starts the moving down

unloading all the stuffs for all ladies

First times sitting on lorry

moving our stuffs to my 'lovely' hostelNow it comes the time for a short shop after settling down all things

No surprise

but it really surprises me that

the counters actually divided into

2 parts:

Male and Female

And I get another 'heart attack'

when I'm on my way to the restroom in a mall

Again, this is what I really get shocked

It is acceptable with the last two signs

But

the female sign with LONG sleeves

and LONG blouse

is totally and simply a surprise!

Calm

Again sitting alone in my room
I think I started to learn how to accept the reality
Action speaks louder than words
I promised myself to learn to be a better me
Comfort my soul and my mind
I told myself: There will be a better tomorrow
Failure of today don’t guarantee the failure of the rest of your life
Live and enjoy everyday to the fullest
It may be not the best for you
But there is the best of the best is waiting for you
I believe…

12.46pm 14.1.2010